I just keep saying, "It.hurts.so.badly." It's all I can say.
God's son died. Not only did His son die, but God let His son die. And the thought struck me...did God hurt THIS badly when His son died? How could it be possible for anyone, let alone GOD, feel this kind of pain? Besides, God knew the ending to the story. Why would He hurt? Why would He mourn? But if I am made in God's image then I feel the pain He is capable of feeling. God keened in heaven when His son died. The realization doesn't make it better. It doesn't take the hurt away. But it's definitely something.