Sofia asks HARD questions. Like "where do people who don't love God go when they die?" "I thought only old people died? Not babies." "Why did God let Violet die?" This last one really got me. How many times have I asked the very same question? "God didn't let Violet die, baby. Sin let Violet die." Sofia responded in the very same way that my heart cries out over and over again - "It's so FRUSTRATING!" Yes, it is. It's frustrating and it doesn't make sense and it's STUPID. Why does God let babies die? I want my baby BACK!
I'm reading a book called I Will Carry You and one thing the author wrote struck me like a ton of rocks the other day. She quoted the story of King David losing his infant son in 2 Samuel 12:19-23 at the end of which David says, "Can I bring him back again? I will go to him, but he will not return to me."
She will not return to me. So every morning when I wake and plead with God with outstretched arms reaching for heaven I find myself replacing my cries "I want her BACK" with these 6 words - "She will not return to me."